Monday, July 5, 2010

My Love Hate relationship with Life!

I love life, I have said it many times but I have such an amazing husband. I don't know where I would be with out his constant love and support. I also have an amazing Daughter who everyday gives me reason after reason to laugh and smile. But life isn't always easy. Last week I got a call from a local clinic saying that they were slow and wanted to know if I wanted to come in for a Ultrasound. They had a couple of girls that came to work with their Mom that wanted to see one. So I jumped at the chance. I had been a little nervous since I got pregnant because of the last one ending in a miscarriage. I started worrying a little extra after our trip to Utah because I wasn't feeling sick anymore. So I was very happy to finally get some piece of mind at this ultrasound. Unfortunately that isn't what I got, right away I knew something was wrong, our little baby no longer had a heartbeat. Instead of dwelling on all the details of it again in this post I will just say that we are doing okay. Brett and I are of course sad, but I know my Heavenly Father has a plan for me and my family. I really feel his comfort and know that it will all work out. That doesn't mean I don't have my moment of tears, but I have good friends and family and I am not alone. Tomorrow morning is my D&C, It will be nice to put this behind me and just focus on the family that I have for awhile. Thanks again to everyone for your love and support!


sarah hornacek said...

my heart breaks for you, friend. i know you're pain is real and i will pray for you as you grieve your loss. love you.

Julie Winder said...

Em, I will be thinking about you. I am so inspired by your post to focus more on the positive things in my life. You have such depth about you and I admire your testimony. You will get through this because of your cute family and strength. Love ya.