Monday, August 17, 2009

Tough Week

Well, I have been trying to decide if I was going to post about this. Then I decided, since this is also like my journal I decided I should. Last week I went in to have my first Ultrasound. When I was there the tech was awful. She didn't talk to me the entire time. At the end she told me she would send the pictures to my Dr. I was soo confused. I never got to see my baby. I called my Dr freaking out a bit and when they called me back they explained that I was showing 4 weeks behind what I should be. I was showing 5 weeks and 4 days, and I should have been 8 weeks 4 days. So the Dr said I either miscarried and got pregnant again right away or I miscarried and my body just hadn't let go yet. I called Brett and let him know, and he came straight home from work to be with me. I have been doing pretty good. I will admit I have cried off and on, but thanks to Kaiya, our move and painting our new house I have been able to stay pretty busy. The last couple days I have been spotting a little which makes me think more that I am not pregnant and my body is catching up. I have a Ultrasound appointment tomorrow to see if the baby has grown at all. If not they will know for sure that I have miscarried, if it has then it looks like I am pregnant again. I am just so frustrated with not knowing one way or another. But I know I have been through worse and that God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle. I will keep everyone updated when I know. Friday we are off to Utah for my little sisters wedding. After all this stress it will be nice to get away. Oh yeah and Brett and I started school last Friday. AHHHH the joys of life. On a better note, we are in our new house. YAY!! I will post pictures as soon as we get everything put together.

4 comments:

sarah hornacek said...

i'm so sorry, emily...i can't image how hard this must be for you and your family. you are so strong and you have great support through whatever you face. i pray that God will be your strength and give you peace at this time.

Julie Winder said...

That is so hard! Can't wait to see new photos of your home. Hope you are almost done moving.

Yeah! WE get so see your cute fam soon:)

Steven and Kimberly said...

That totally stinks, Em. What a load to carry with not knowing. And what a way to find out with a stinky tech. Try to be strong through this and we will be praying that you are pregnant with a happy and HEALTHY baby!

Travis and Celena said...

Sorry to hear all that you are going through. I'm giving you a long distance hug.