Sunday Walk

After a long busy week, we decided we needed some family time. Poor Simon had been kept in the house all week. So we decided to take an afternoon walk on the beach. It was crazy to have the sand cold on our feet, what a change. It was a little big chilly out, I think in the 60's. But that didn't stop us, or the surfers. It was crazy to see how many people were still out enjoying the beach and the water. It was a little bit foggy, but a very beautiful day. Reminded me of the northern California beaches. Simon, you would think was in doggy heaven. He kept trying to run up sand hills, and would run toward the waves but as soon as they came would take off running away. He is very scared of water. It was nice to have our little family time. But it made it just that much harder to start this next week. Thank goodness the holidays are coming up. YAY

Ward Christmas Party

Well Saturday was our ward christmas party. I wasn't nearly as nervous as I was for my first activity. I decided to go with something simple since Christmas is a busy time of the Year. Our ward does a live Nativity in front of the church, and everyone brings there nativity scenes to the church. They open it up for the whole city to come through, what a great missionary opportunity :). Anyways back to my ward party. Brett and I went to the church on Friday night and pulled everything from the shed. Its amazing how much I had to choose from. I really didn't have to buy much.. YAY. Then I had to work Saturday until 3, so I went over to the Church and met up with my one committee member and Brett. We put up 5 tree's, tables, 2 small wreaths, and a huge one meant to go out on the building Brett had to put up. He hung it from the ceiling. Then toward the end the missionaries showed up and set up chairs. We had just enough time for Brett and the missionaries to throw the basket ball around ( watching out for chairs and tables). While I went home to change and get them food. The rest of the night was just a relaxing good time. We watched a slide show of the ward through out the year. Then Santa made a surprise visit. While we all enjoyed some yummy cookies and milk. I just wish I wasn't so tired I could have enjoyed it all a little bit more. Brett and I still had time to watch a movie when we got home :).

Jelly Bean

That is right Brett and I are having a Jelly Bean. Today was my Dr's appointment. It was about 3 hours long, ahhh. But well worth it since we got to see our baby for the first time. It looks like a Jelly Bean with a flicker light. We knew right away that the flicker was our babies heart beat. That about CRAZY. They said everything looks really good. The heart rate was really strong 146 bpm which they said was very healthy. She even game me something to help with the nausea YAY. I might make it through this first trimester after all. Anyways I just thought I would share my wonderful experience with you all. Our due date is July 9th, oh so far away.

7 weeks

Well today I am 7 weeks pregnant. You can tell its my first I don't shut up about it haha. But I love Wednesdays cause its when I hit a new week. So I get to look up everything about that week of pregnancy. Most of the time I end up peaking at the next week too. Its crazy to think my baby already has a strong heart, kidneys, brain like all the major stuff. But what got me is that it said the baby is already swimming around. If it takes after his Dad, he is going to be a great swimmer, if after his Mom, not so great haha.



That reminds me of something on Brett and I's honeymoon. Brett was saying I needed to relax more and just be spontaneous. Well we rented a boat and took it out in a inlet of the ocean. Let me just say an inlet of the ocean isn't anything like lake. Which I know now. Well we put down anchor and decided to fish, well I decided to try this spontaneous thing and I jumped in to swim. I guess you have to watch when you can be spontaneous. The tide was really strong and pulled me out into where the boats were and further and further away from where Brett and the boat was. So he had to pull in anchor and drive over to get me. Yeah wasn't one of the highlights of our honeymoon but sure makes me laugh now.

Now that I got that side note/story out of the way, I really hope this baby swims like his Daddy. Oh and stops making Mommy so sick.

Anyways, I hope everyone has a great thanksgiving. I think its obvious what I am thankful for. My husband and my new Baby to be. Oh yeah and my family and friends. That we always seem to find enough to get by. For my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and the Holly Ghost. That is just a start, there is a whole lot more.

The Uninvited Guest

So I feel like morning sickness is like the guest that you really didn't want to invite but tag along when one of your friends. That jumps in right when you start to have fun and reminds you just how annoying they are. Making all your favorite party foods just not enjoyable, and all you favorite games just unbearable. You know when you invited your friend there was this chance that they may bring it along with them, but you hope that they don't. I invited a baby into our life, I knew that it may bring along morning sickness, but man does it suck. Last night we had Brett's sister and a guy over to play games and right when I was in the middle of enjoying everything here comes the annoying guess to make sure I can't. I guess I am just happy to know that it will eventually leave. I also know that in the end it will be well worth it.

I am so excited to be a Mom. I have been waiting for this most of my adult life. I think its still hard to belive it is actually happening. I am sure Brett gets sick of it, but I am always saying " were going to have a baby", or "Is it weird to think you are going to be a Dad" he always says no its not. But the other day I asked is it weird to think in 8 months you will have a Son or Daughter. I think that hit home to him. Not just that we are going to have a baby, but that it will be his baby. Since then he seems a lot more worried about how I am doing and feeling. I can't think of a better man for the job of a father though. But I guess that's why I married him. I figure if he can put up with me, he can take anything a kid is going to dish out.

Taking a Chance

One year ago today, little did I know how much my life was about to change. The day started with school just like any other day. But after school is when all the phone calls began. My Mom and Sisters like clock work took turns calling me all day. That along with my friends. Everyone excited and nervous for me, but none as excited or nervous as me. Looking back I think if I had known how much my life was about to change I would have been even more excited, well and nervous. Finally after a day of anticipation, around 7:30pm I got a long awaited knock at the door. I opened the door and there he is, with flowers and a huge smile my future husband. I am so very very grateful that he had enough faith in us, that he packed up his car and drove 3 days across the country to give us a chance. I know that my life wouldn't be as blessed today with out him in it. I love you Brett!!!

Addiction

I am addicted to taking pregnancy test. The dollar store has them for, that's right a dollar. I keep taking them to see if the line gets darker or shows up faster. I don't know if this is because its fun to actually see it show up, and I get that excitement all over again. Or if its because I am paranoid that my hormones aren't doubling. If the line gets darker then it means they are. Either way they are showing up faster and getting darker. So looks like all is OK. Guess I just need to learn that patience and just wait until Nov 26Th for my Ultra Sound.

Pregnant or Not?

Patience, something I really need to learn. Yesterday morning I took a pregnancy test. Now first let me say the pregnancy test says to wait 3- 5 minutes for results. Well I waited a good 30 seconds, gave up and threw it away. Well later on I got the feeling I should check it again. Well it showed positive for a baby. YAY, or is it to soon to say YAY. It was one of those early pregnancy test, so when I went to the Dr and took their regular one it showed up negative. So they did a blood test. After I swear the longest day of waiting I finally got a call 3 minutes before closing that said I had a level of 20 hcg. Well less then 5 is not pregnant, more then 25 is pregnant. So what about us in the 6 to 24 range. They said to come back in 3 weeks for a ultra sound to know for sure. Well for now I still haven't started my period. I guess I will just have to re-test in a few days with a regular pregnancy test to know for sure. So wish me luck.

FAMILY

wow I miss you guys so much. It's true what they say you don't really appreciate something until its gone. The first thing that comes to mind, (which I hate to say) my parents were right. When you get older the fighting stops and your sisters become your best friends. Even though mine are so far away from me, I think they will always be some of my best friends. I just got done reading everyones blogs. I realize I am missing so much. I want you all to know how much I love you. Its hard (very) being across the country from everyone. I know it would be easy just to come home. But after reading my pacharcial blessing again yesterday I know I am where I am supppose to be. I just wish it wasn't so hard to be away from you guys. Mom I love that I can call you all the time, and for those few minutes on the phone I feel like you aren't so far away. I know I wasn't the easiest kid, haha I am probably still not, but thanks for always putting up with me. Brett gave me a blessing the other night cause I had been struggleing being away from all of you. Let me first say how greatful I am that I have a husband that can give me a blessing. That is a blessing in it self. With that said, in the blessing he told me that heavenly father wanted to me to know that my family loves me as much as I love them. So that must be a lot since I love all of you a whole lot. My best friend and her husband out here just found out she is pregnant. So yesterday we went looking at baby stuff. I was telling her how bummed I was when I realized I wouldn't get to be around my sisters when I am prego. She also comes from a big family (7), and told me she is way from her family too. That is why God made us find each other so we could be each others sisters. In the short time I have know Goldy and her Husband ( who is just like Brett) I have already grown to love them both very much and know I wouldn't be able to make it out here with out them. Its nice feeling like I have some kind of family out here. But of course she will never take the place of my own sisters. I also have really fun sister in laws, they are all very different and I seem to always find a way to connect with each of them in a different area and an amazing mother in law. I can honestly say she is my friend, which is what I have always wanted in a mother in law. I am just so greatful that my havenly father gave me a way that I can be with all of you forever.

I appreciate and love you all very much.

Where to start.

So everyday I think about hmmm what can I write on my blog today. I can never think of anything. Until today (haha) and I realized there was so much I could write about this last week. Last Saturday Brett and I went and did a temple session with Bretts Mom. It was soooo good to go back. I hadn't been back since Brett and I's wedding. I just couldn't stop smiling the whole time I was there. I love the peaceful feeling that you get. Like nothing can harm you. I don't know if I have ever really told my sister Julie how greatful I was that she went through with me my first time. But I couldn't stop thinking about it and how we both got a bad case of the giggles.

After the temple we went to the state fair. It was a lot fun. They had some really good food, grilled corn, turkey legs, funnel cakes, hush puppies and a lot more. I thought Brett was in heaven. He has been talking about the state fair since we met. I forgot how fun it was to see all the little farm animals. It was also just good to get out in the air. Its been really hot here lately and it cooled down to the mid 70's.

We decided to leave Simon at Brett's parents house for the week since we will be heading back up there this weekend for a baby blessing. Its crazy how much we miss the little guy. We thought it would be nice to have a break. But its kinda weird not having him sitting the window waiting for us to get home. Then running to the door. Its always nice to know you have some one waiting and excited to see you when you get there. But I will say it has been kinda nice not having someone crawl up in your bed in the middle of the night and squeezing his way between to the two of you. I guess he is just getting us ready for when we have kids crawling in bed with us at night.

What's Missing?

Well Brett and I decided something was missing. Let me first say we wanted to wait a few years before having kids. But lately I have been feeling like something was missing, a baby. So Brett and I decided to pray and fast about it last Sunday. Well that night I had a dream. It was a very simple dream but gave us the answer we needed. I was just sitting there holding a baby. No name, no gender, just a baby. But I was so happy in my dream. Then when I woke up I felt sad. So we decided that it must be time for us to bring a little baby shurtleff to our family. I am not pregnant yet. We are hoping to change that soon.

How did I get so lucky?

Today I realized what a lucky girl I am. I may not have the job I want, or be living in a house yet. But what I have so many people look for their whole life and never get, LOVE. I have the most amazing husband. I never thought I would find someone so understanding, so compassionate, and so incredibly patient. But I did and I found it all in one person. I just wanted everyone to know how grateful I am to have such a wonderful husband.